I know balance in Gods kingdom and in my life is important. I'm struggling with guilt on myself and by my local church because I like to drink wine. I feel like I've failed and I'm judged. I'm even harder on myself if I OVER drink. Is it ok to drink but wrong to get drunk? If so, please pray for me to be free from desire if alcohol.

Hi Carol. You are loved! Carol is it the desire for alcohol? Is it the desire to feel something better than the pain, frustration, unhappiness, or anxiety you experience when you are sober? Because in the case of the latter- that desire is not something to be fixed. It's the promise of God that you should experience joy....just without the dependence on anything other than what-rather, Who is within you and the joy that heaven takes in you. Sometimes its hard to access that. I struggle to access it and I tend to do harmful things like overeating or eating things that contribute to poor health. With warm greetings-

I also have a question around guilt. Is it the case that guilt is the fume of hell? Like is the righteous feeling or experience "conviction" but the guilt and shame are the fumes of the enemy's deceit? Or is guilt a godly response?

The 'guilt' is a jab to my performance. I know that much...I feel like I've failed God. Ultimately, I don't like the control it has on me, for example, 4pm comes around and I'm looking for my drink. I miss out on part of my life

Carol, I understand what it feels like to think we have failed God. It's horrible and draining. I don't believe it is from God if we feel bad and not motivated to do something about it. I took me too long to deal with it as I didn't realise I was partnering with self pity, guilt, other stuff and old patterns of feeling and thinking. It hindered my awareness of Gods Presence. The desire to drink is usually linked to something else and possibly avoidance to deal with that issue. I also discovered this through experience. It was more comfortable and easy to enjoy sedating myself with drink than to look at an area causing me unhappiness and make decisions that would change my life. My suggestion is Make time, write down what is not making you happy, possibly a past event that was not resolved in a healthy way or something current. Write your options of how to deal with them and ask yourself what would be the most freeing choice. I was not seeing with the perspective I needed to bring change. Be blessed with truth and courage, self love and compassion. I hope this has been helpful.

Thank you for love and encouragement. Thank you for being the body of Christ.

Well, I read through all of your posts and gained some helpful insite. I could relate with the gnawing sense of guilt that can sometimes be buried deep and I don't even know for sure what it is. Yet, I know that it is a pattern that probably developed from my past. I want emotional and physical relief and to be free. What helps? The more I listen and sit under Grahams teaching the less I identify with these stuck feelings identifying who I am. I lean into Jesus and ask Him to undo what only he can undo within me as I know that my freedom has already been paid for. Jesus helps me identify more with who I am in Christ-not the twisted attachments from the past that were hurtful. Little by little this seems to help. I know that guilt is not from God and this is not what God wants me to identify with. He wants to free me from the bondage of self. Somehow knowing this helps. As God reveals more of himself to me he helps me unhook from old lies and distorted beliefs. I can actually grieve for the situations that took place in my life where these lies were established. I find that I am relieved of the pressure of blaming myself and others. This is a process for me and I can't decide how long these things take yet day by day I am transforming. Thank you all for expressing yourself.

Amen, I'm listening to overcoming negativity. Its helping for sure.