From: God’s Empowering Presence - Episode 10
So, there are mistakes and there is the decision to disobey. I'm assuming that Grace is there in God's faithful presence. . . simply because of who He is. However, Disobedience must end.
There must be grace for that too. Grace to love more, too much to choose other. Too much to believe the lies of hopelessness in whatever clothes they are dressed in.
Good assumption! By why disobedience ends is vital. Grace is always present, always empowering, unchanging because God is unchanging towards us in Christ...and life is about our response to His grace.
Whenever willful disobedience is present, it's an opportunity to stop and ask, "What is that person believing about themselves and about God that would make them think, speak or behave like that?" And we can ask that of ourselves. What are we believing ... what's missing of our experience of God that has led to us making a lesser choice?
Behavior is always an outcome of identity - our perceptions and thinking about who God really is and who we really are. From that perspective, we can come boldly to the throne of grace in time of need... without shame, to agree with God that this isn't the way to fill that missing piece. We apologize - and He smiles, because He loves being our Redeemer.
Then together, we can sit with Jesus as the Way, the Truth and the Life that sets us free from the lies that have taken us captive. Empowering Grace offers us something far more brilliant in our experience of Him, so letting go of meeting our perceived needs our own way is easily let go of.
In the end, we will all choose to do what we want to do. That’s why living life from relationship and passion for God because of how wonderful He is... rather than sheer discipline... is vital (Phil 2:13)
Yes - disobedience ends because goodness and kindness has overwhelmed us (Romans 2:4) and we want to turn and go a different way (also known as repentance.) Obedience rises from passion to remain in the fellowship of holiness in Jesus... a beautiful way to live. We demonstrate the fruit of true repentance in living a new way.
Sounds like you're discovering that. What a great exploration.