What do I do with all the extra energy I used to spend on figuring things out or master planning/worrying? You step out of chaos and into this broad space, but then it gets a little disorienting. All that freedom can feel like that after years of imprisonment. What now?
When Lazarus was resurrected some time was spent unwrapping the grave clothes.
I don't think the Lord wants you to approach Freedom as something to 'do" next. Take some time to identify what you are leaving behind so that it does not stay wrapped around your heart and mind by default of you being delivered from a doing environment. Enjoy the process of divesting yourself fully of that environment. That will be very freeing and your'e mind will go to a different place of thinking.
Then you can go to the place of the prodigal and not resume the life of the elder brother. There are gifts and celebrations that should mark your life going forward, not to mention a deeper place in God's affection. Like anything else Freedom needs time to be savored and fully enjoyed so that the joy in it remains as a lifestyle.
Beautiful answer by Graham. That process of being unwrapped is so valuable to embrace.
Amy, your post sparked a memory for me that I'll contribute also for you and future readers. For many years, I worked with women in prison and part of our role was to pick up our inmate friends when they were released and take them to their aftercare program - sometimes after 15, 20 or more years of incarceration.
We realized quickly that it was not wise to take them to restaurants or crowded places where they had to make choices. The world was now wide open before them, but it could also be overwhelming.
So, we would arrive with a picnic basket and drive to a lovely park to share their first afternoon of freedom. Then we would drive around and chat a bit so they could begin to grasp their environment and begin their process of acclimating to their new freedom. We didn't overload them with information, just let them take a look around. We always brought a small present to celebrate the day.
Truth sets us free. When we discover that what we thought to be true is not the Truth... and what God's reality is instead...there is a new experience of freedom! There will be varying levels of acclimation to all that is possible now in that wide open place - but no expectation to understand it all right at the beginning.
I imagine Jesus being so glad about the Truths you are discovering. Like we were with our friends, how much more are He, the Father and Holy Spirit simply rejoicing in your new life and freedom. They are delighted to walk around in it with you, celebrate you and sit with you as you discover the gifts, possibilities and provisions that They've prepared for you.
Like Adam and Eve, God prepared a garden... a cultivated place to learn and grow in before subduing the entire earth. Discover your new, place of being with Him that He has prepared for you, of allowing Him to unwrap any old ways of perceiving and thinking and walking with Him as you explore and adapt to what's possible now.