I am having a wonderful time getting to know the Jesus in me. I have been asking the Holy Spirit questions like you suggested “like what is this situation going to do to upgrade me? However, I don’t know how to handle this when my husband thinks he can go out with another woman and it’s okay.
However, I can say this time it did not hurt as times in the past.
I am glad that in the midst of such a nasty personal difficulty that you are exploring the real Jesus and asking amazing questions. Ive had experiences in the past also where I've been betrayed. The question I asked the Lord was; " How do you love when love is not returned?" The answer He gave me was filled with His own tears. "Love does not seek a return. Love, loves for the sake of loving."
That's when it hit me, that there were untold millions of times of unrequited love in His life, Year after year, century upon century. He knows. He's felt it, heard it, seen it; and He still loves in the same Unchanging Way. That's when I knew I could love Him no matter what occurred in my life. Since that moment of self awareness in Jesus, I have had numerous similar situations of being let down and let go.
There is always a Way to learn the Truth and encounter the Life that is never-ending and available. To love so deeply you have to be in love with love itself. A choice that He makes every day. That has been a lovely source of Comfort to me and has allowed me to learn the beauty of responding rather than the ugliness of negative reaction.
I truly hope that this community can be a place of life, love and laughter for you.
I think you'll be encouraged by listening to this episode from The Fruit of the Spirit, entitled "Uncommon Love." What I learned about Uncommon Love, during times when love was not returned... and I learned to love anyway, because how beautifully He loved me.
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