Because of the extreme physical, emotional, and sexual abuse I encountered from my family, especially during my toddler and teenage years – as an adult, all I wanted to do is run and be away from people.

There came a time in my life when God told me I needed to stand because I wanted more of His love to flood my life. I didn't want to stand I just wanted to be alone with God and to be left alone. But that wasn't God's plan.

God's plan for my life was to show me how much of an extraordinary and amazing father he is and in order to do this, I had to work through my “baggage”. I'm still working on my baggage.

All I ever wanted from my biological father was a healthy love and never got it because he didn't know how to have that. His mother didn't teach him a healthy love because her father taught her that in order to be loved you committed incest.

My heavenly Father, my Papa, is standing with his heart and His Arms Wide Open and at first, taking the first step was extremely difficult because I didn't believe I could trust God not to hurt me like my biological earthly father.

Years ago, I forced myself to stand. I still don't want to have that much to do with people who don't show a loving nature but that is being a respecter of persons and not showing God's love the way He has intended.

I am learning how to live in and show God's love on a better plane everyday as God gives me the resources to keep learning and putting that knowledge into action. Thank you for the resources for me to go higher and deeper with God.

I want to go to a higher level with God and be showered and overwhelmed more with his love, mercy and Grace so all of His resources flow through me to others because that is my calling and their salvation and walk with God is of more importance than my selfish desires.

This means a lot of dying to my flesh every single moment and opening my heart more to Him.

Hi Gloria! I'm new to Brilliant TV. I'm going through one of the most difficult seasons in my entire life and I'm just looking for The Lord's amazing Body to walk through this with!!

I'm currently separated from my husband. He is asking me for a divorce and it's ripping my heart out of my chest! There's too much to get into as we've been married for 23 years and I would be here for a month trying to explain all the ins and outs.

I would love to get overwhelmed with purpose and love and goodness flowing from the Father's heart to mine so I can see a bigger picture than just being a wife. I need to remember how amazing Jesus thinks I am and what a wonderful purpose for my life!!

Right now I'm in this stage where I feel like I can barely breathe. I've lost 15 pounds, my hair is falling out, I'm not eating or sleeping well. I'm having consistent nightmares and I need purpose back in my life, I need joy! I'm soaking God 24/7 and I can only imagine that His seed is doing things inside me, even if I can't feel them at the moment!

I've been watching Graham now for at least 6 weeks straight. From the morning I wake up until the time I go to bed and even in between.

I know in my spirit that what he's saying is Truth, I'm just waiting for all of that Revelation to become a reality in my life.

I need to know that I know that I know that I know I know that Jesus is enough, MORE THAN ENOUGH!!!

Right now I'm so consumed with the fact that my husband is asking me for an answer on what to do and I just want to be alone with Jesus and regain my identity as God's little girl.

I know that I need to give my husband an answer and I can't even imagine giving him permission to move forward. However, I know that what him and I had has to die because we were destroying eachother from our lack of knowledge.

Also, My Daddy just passed away a week ago as well, so I'm dealing with all of that...

I've never been this way before. I've been saved for 23 years and I've had such a loving wonderful trusting relationship with the Father. Now going through this season, I feel like my faith is on trial and I want to get back to just being completely fully reliant on my Daddy God!

Anyway I could go on and on but I just wanted to get my heart out there and see who's willing to walk this out with me! We can pray for each other and lift each other up to the only ONE who can love us back into wholeness!

Thanks for listening!
Lori Storms ❤️

Wow Gloria! Thank you so much for your life giving words, I know them to be very true in the deepest part of my soul! ❤️

I love writing so I'm really looking forward to the assignment you gave me, I believe it came from the heart of the Father!!

Thank you for reaching out so quickly, the body of Christ is truly amazing!! ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you Gloria!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hi Gloria, how are you today? I have a question that I need an outsiders perspective on.

I know I informed you that my husband is requesting a divorce. He wants me to (so to speak) release him. But I haven't felt that release yet.

My heart is breaking and I don't know what to do. How do you give the love of your life permission to leave you?

I feel like he's already so disconnected emotionally and I'm over here coming un-glued!
I'm hysterically crying as I write this.

My question for you is, I have so many things that I want to say to him. So many things that he's done and said in the last 3 months that have been so wrong and so damaging; so contradicting and so hurtful.

Everything inside of me wants to call him and tell him how I feel and all the hurtful things he said in the last few weeks. But then I was watching a Graham video last night about the goodness of God and I get all confused.

Because in the deepest core of who I am, it's hard for me to be mean and cold. All I want to do is grab him, and shake him back into reality, back into who he really is in Jesus, back into our family.

However, I already feel like he has made up his mind. And to be honest with you, with the mindset that he is in right now, I wouldn't even feel safe emotionally to be around him. I feel like he's in a dark place making decisions that are not lining up with the will of God.

I'm still being liquefied by the Father and I know he still has so much growth. I thought that we were separated for the purpose of growing individually and then coming back together but it sounds like he's already gone and detached from my heart, which makes me want to throw up! I even think there's somebody else but I can't even go there!

So my question is, what do I do? I want to call and vindicate myself. I want to call and tell him he's not getting away with these horrible things he's been saying. I want to tell him how much he's been contradicting himself and saying things that he's going to regret later down the road.

I don't want to have any regrets of not sharing how I feel but I don't want to call somebody out and judge them and criticize them when I know the Lord has already forgiven them.

I guess I'm just looking for somebody who isn't apart of my inner circle to possibly pray and give me some counsel. It's such a weird scenario as we live in the same town and I have to still see him from time to time to take care of house things, or work related issues.

Half of me just wants to call him and say, go ahead and file, do whatever you have to do because I can't handle this pain anymore!! And the other half of me wants to shake him loose from whatever dark place he's in and hug him so tight!

I'm sorry I'm venting all of this on to you. I've been in a very sad sad place this week and I just am looking for some wisdom.

Thank you sincerely,
Lori Storms

P.S. If this information is too personal maybe we can exchange emails, if you feel comfortable with that. I'm okay having my information on this forum as there are many people I'm sure that would have wisdom on what to do.

You're absolutely right Gloria! It's the same advice my good friends are giving me so I know that it's the Lord leading me in that direction.

I've calmed down since then and God has been loving on me for hours now! Thank you for reaching out and sharing your counsel, it really means a lot to me.

I'm just going to spend my time with Jesus and allow Him to love me. I'm not going to react emotionally, I'm just going to put my husband on a pause and put myself on a pause until I'm released to share what the Lord leads me to share.

I know when the time is right the goodness of God will be on display and He will get all the glory! Thank you again for reaching out, you're awesome!

Lori ❤️

Lori, take care of yourself through this. I'm glad you're doing what is best for you.

Thank you Gloria, I am! I've been soaking in the goodness of God for 6 weeks now and I'm just going to keep going!! ❤️

Hi Lori,

I just went on this site and saw your emails to Gloria and perhaps you have passed through what you wrote 15 days ago. However, I thought I would write this to you to encourage you anyway. You probably know this verse in Isaiah 54:17 but it's good to repeat it and believe it because God will come through for you, "No weapon that is formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment you will condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord and their vindication is from me," declares the Lord. God will work for you.

I've heard that this is a season for who is all in for Christ and who is not. We see this with the churches. I seem to moving into being all the more in for Christ. I've gone through a divorce and looking back I didn't call out to God to the depth I am now. I had Covid and I don't seem to be recuperating from it very well. I still feel sickish and it's been a month. So my mind goes to worrying about my health and I have to fight it and believe God has healing for me. When I write I believe God has healing for me, I can sense the truth in that statement. Praise God!! Also, I don't want to go about telling people that I'm not recuperating from it very well, then they think I'm still contagious which I'm not. Then there's this national or global fear about covid that I think one can pick up spiritually. Anyway, through this God is causing me to go deeper with Him and I thank Him for it. Not for the sickness but what can be done through it. I'm waiting on God. Praise Him!

I want to leave you with this poem. It really speaks to me and I hope it does to you as well.

His Sweet Will

I have no cares, O blessed Will!
For all my cares are Thine;
I live in triumph, Lord; for Thou
Hast made Thy triumphs mine.

And when it seems no chance or change
From grief can set me free,
Hope finds its strength in helplessness,
And calmly waits on Thee.

Man's weakness waiting upon God
Its end can never miss,
For men on earth no work can do
More angel-like than this.

Ride on, ride on, triumphantly,
Thou glorious Will! ride on;
Faith's pilgrim sons behind thee take
The road that Thou hast gone.

He always wins who sides with God,
To him no chance is lost;
God's Will is sweetest to him when
It triumphs at his cost.

Ill that He blesses is our good,
And unblessed good is ill;
And all is right that seems so wrong,
If it be His sweet will.

By Frederick William Faber

I like it that it mentions "helplessness" because that's the way I feel and it sounds like you feel the same way. Like Graham says, "Let go and let God."

Blessings to you.

Sweet Judy! 💜

Thank you so much for taking the time out to read my post and respond. Being gloomy and sad is so far from who I normally am that it's weird to even reread what I wrote you. I'm just trying to be honest and not hide from the Body; or pretend that I'm super woman!

Every time I've gone through something very devastating in my life, the body of Christ shines like the glory of the Son and I know to call upon them when I need to be lifted!

The Lord says two are better than one because when one is down there is another there to lift the other one up!

That's what we do for each other! We lift each other up and we help each other stay focused on Jesus!

I've given myself an allowance for emotion but then I quickly make sure I'm searching for the promise and the provision attached to every circumstance of my current situation!

After my last post, my 12 year old Puppy died right in front of me and I thought; "Okay, Lord.. You're turning me into a GIANT because I have never, EVER experienced such an onslaught of possibilities in this short amount of time - in my entire life"!!!

However, through each challenge, one thing is constant and secure and that's the faithfulness and the lovingkindness of our sweet Jesus!

I keep telling myself; "Stop identifying yourself as a soon to be divorcee or lonely person or a rejected person! NONE of those are my titles or my Truth!

Truth be told, long before I was ever someone's wife - I was always HIS BRIDE! Before the earth was made, before the sun and moon were formed, before He hung one star in the sky, I WAS HIS!!

This is an identity that has been lost for 23 years but I'm reclaiming it! I told the Lord; "You're my husband, You're my best friend, You're my satisfaction, You're my everything! You're the One who knows me best and loves me most and there's nothing more on this planet that I want more than to be with Him!

So that's where I am from morning until night. In fact currently I am having what I call my "Jesus Date" . Every night at 7:00 p.m. I come into my bedroom, light some candles grab my two puppies, my Bible, my journal and usually some chocolate and I have a date with The King!

It's my favorite part of the day! It's where I feel so safe and secure and home and loved! I'm just sitting here right now and He's pouring His devotion and romance onto me, it's beautiful! 🙏💙

I'm very sorry that you're still dealing with the effects of covid. My husband and I had it last year and it was no bueno but Jesus pulled us through it and we're totally healed! I will tell you that the book of James was something God used to get me through it.

The Lord told me to scrape out the joy of every second. So that's what we did for 3 months. My husband and I just sat at home scraping the joy out of every moment and it really worked! We got through it - In Joy! So that's what I'll pray for you!
I'll pray that you can scrape the joy out of the situation and know that the Lord did not cause this but He will use it!

You'll come out of this better and stronger than before! I speak the love of God to permeate every ounce of your body and push out any remaining sickness or feelings of yuckiness! I thank you Jesus that Judy is healed and whole because 2,000 years ago you took covid on the Cross and when you were raised to new life, covid did not go with You!

And now we are seated with You in heavenly places! As You are in heaven so are we on this earth! Do you have sickness in Heaven? NO! So neither do we on this Earth!

All anyone can ever do is RUN to HIM and consent to be loved! Don't try and be strong, He is your strength! Just fall in His chest and allow His GREAT BIG DADDY ARMS to wrap around you and fill your heart with gladness!!!!

God bless you Judy! Please keep me up to date on your progress and I will do the same for you! Jesus is amazing and He has amazing plans for us!!!! 🙏💙

Love,
Lori ❤️

Thank you for that sweet poem as well, that was very kind of you! 💙

Dear Lori,

Thank you so much for your prayer. It really encouraged me. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I want to add that helplessness is another word for brokenness and God cannot fill a vessel with His glory that has not gone through brokenness. Peter went through brokenness after he denied Christ and then Jesus said after you turn, strengthen your brethren. I bet Peter was really filled with His glory. Praise God!!! God has wonderful things for you, Lori. And I believe your last name will turn from storms that you are under to storms that you are over and you will storm heaven. Amen. Blessings and love to you.

Yes, I do too! Thank you Judy and Gloria and all of the amazing people Jesus gives me the privilege of meeting! I love you all! Let's keep lifting eachother up to our beautiful King Jesus! He's all together Lovely!!! 💛🧡💜💙👑